we are all born mad. some remain so.

chinese new year. again.

arent you all sick of the same old boring stuff?

i'll go, eat, watch and greet the same places, shows and people as i did last year, and the year before, and the year before before and the year before before before, and... you get the point.

dread aside, i could use this break. not like ive been working hard recently, but at least theres this perfect opportunity to slack without guilt. and eat. whoops.

looking at the resolutions ive made... i really THINK ive been following them strictly. BUT ive tried! i havent touched the indonesian food stall, no real supper! er... didnt really eat fruits, ran... twice?

ARGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!

enough lamenting. came across something frm anne morrow lindbergh... have realised and understood alot.

"When you love someone, you do not love them all the time, in exactly the same way, from moment to moment. It is an impossibility. It is even a lie to pretend to. And yet this is exactly what most of us demand. We have so little faith in the ebb and
flow of life, of love, of relationships. We leap at the flow of the tide and resist in terror its ebb. We are afraid it will never return. We insist on permanency, on duration, on continuity; when the only continuity possible, in life as in love, is in growth, in fluidity - in freedom, in the sense that the dancers are free, barely touching as they pass, but partners in the same pattern.

The only real security is not in owning or possessing, not in demanding or expecting, not in hoping, even. Security in a relationship lies neither in looking back to what was in nostalgia, nor forward to what it might be in dread or anticipation, but
living in the present relationship and accepting it as it is now. Relationships must be like islands, one must accept them for what they are here and now, within their limits - islands, surrounded and interrupted by the sea, and continually visited and abandoned by the tides."