i miss lying/sitting on my ass. now what happened? you ask.

i fell down. slipped. in the washroom. while bathing. it was quite a horrible experience that i have no desire to renarrate out in the blog. the main point is i cut my right butt cheek on the tile that was jutting out. a real bad abrasion.

lloyd immediately came to the rescue. not much to rescue though. the pain had by then subsided then he attended to the wound by making me air it. after that we went to watch zoolander and had char kway teow at selegie. bad choice.

day two the wound got infected. red and pussy (i meant there was alot of pus) which made me panicked for real. day 3 the doctor easily dismissed my case as "superficial abrasion" and gave me anticeptic cream. it was better than nothing...

so today is day 4. im here lying on my tummy, or on my left side and i cant sit properly. tomorrow school starts. GREAT. wad holidays again?

lloyd took care of me and bought me my meals and applied the cream for me regularly. im starting to forget how life was without him during such treacherous times. my ass would have probably rot 5 times over before it finally gets healed.

i know im supposed to keep it dry but i HAVE to bathe. so everytime theres the possibility of getting much better (dry) it gets wet and the bloody wound gets tender and painful again. fuck it man.

tomorrow sheares production begins. im involved in the preshow and seems like i have to perform with a pain in the ass. literally. ah what the heck. through all this pain, at least i have the love of a good man.

read a studio mate's blog and saw this quiz... its eerily accurate...

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

finally finally FINALLY. submission OVER.

we're making a blog!!!

:)

i find myself blogging in the busiest of times, where everything around me requires me to commit (drama archi swc shaca) all at once, i just need to run away and sort out my thoughts. thats where blogging comes in.

so many things have happened, so many thoughts, so much feelings, i cant write them all down right now. but what i can say is im not in the best of moods, to put it mildly.

its not necessarily "bad mood", but more of being in the "grey area". so many things presented before me, and i dont know what and how to make out of it. things that are neither good nor bad, but just makes me re-evaluate things ive always thought were enough. or right. or good.

its worse than being in a bad mood, at least u noe you are supposed to be frustrated or displeased. hanging in the middle of nowhere just makes things less clear, i have this freaking urge to computerise everything in my life, so that i can clearly decide how to feel right now.

do i want what i have right now?
can i handle what im doing right now?
is what im doing right?
what am i doing things for?

yes. thats the most impt question. what am i doing things for? what are YOU doing things for? the model answer should be "you do things for yourself." but no one does that. because that will automatically earn you the label of "selfish", or "insensitive".
hence when things change, you cannot expect yourself to lead the same life as before. there are more things and consequences to consider. especially the people around you. humans ARE complex animals. they have feelings that you are directly conscious of. yet by conveniently being indifferent or choosing to ignore or thinking that things will run smoothly is an obviously erronous conception. humans are smart. they interpret things and derive EMOTIONS that no one can ever say thats right or wrong to have. however, what they THINK can be evaluated as right or wrong. perhaps you believe things can work out by adopting a certain way. but the truth is it CANNOT. not when humans are involved.

after talking for so long, you still have no idea what this is about?

neither do i.

dont worry. its a classic architecture gesture.

being outrageously ambiguous.

nevermind. im just very tired.