we are all born mad. some remain so.

i'm slowly coming to terms that everything will never be perfect, or what seems to be perfect is in fact a big piece of shit. its like when u're sitting on the toilet bowl, constipating for hours, thinking the shit that comes out had better be a big stinky one that's worth it, but all you get are pathetic tiny pellets. it just totally doesnt meet up to your expectation, and what you've always thought to be true and possible all crumbles down to nothing.

i envy those who are void of emotions. yes, its true that they wont feel joy, but they too, wont feel pain and sadness, especially those inflicted by other people. no. pain and sadness are not what makes life "complete". they come as a package with joy. people delude themselves and say that only to make the suffering more tolerable.

think. being sentimental and holding on to feelings and emotions only bring people down. its always after a bad breakup or rejection that people say, "move on" or "try to forget". sometimes they just give up and say "remember this as a lesson, its part of what you've been through" and so on and so forth.

rubbish.

think. NOT being sentimental will simply allow people live as per normal. losing friends or love or even being at the periphery of the social circle wouldnt mean a thing to people without sentiments. isnt that great? thats not being cold and heartless. thats just protecting yourself. why go through hell when you can build your little own paradise the way YOU want it? like the things you like! shun the things you dont like! feel no guilt about hurting other people. afterall, isnt what everyone does to everyone else?

you're fat! heck.
your friends are disappearing! heck.
a bitch is coming on to your boyfriend! heck.
he's running away with her! heck.

i know a group of people who have mastered the art of being non-sentimenal.

they are called guys.