we are all born mad. some remain so.

life's been busy

couple of things happened these few days that got me thinking quite alot...

1. zheyi's film that got cannes film award
its really weird to see someone u grew up with getting such honours. im not jealous or wish it was me, the only envy i had was he was where angelina jolie was.
but im cool and happy for him. people thought he was a goner when he went to poly from chinese high, but look where he is now... but then again, he was rich to begin with so he went to LA to school a few years then.

but i wonder. things wont be the same anymore if we all do meet him again the next time. just because of one award.

2. results
i felt really happy to see my results improve sem after sem, and yet im starting to fear i can't make it through to a achieve cap of 3.5 at the end of my academic life. that's a second lower class honours. it sounds terrible. but its already so difficult to clinch. just keep working harder. and harder and harder. when will all this end? and when it does end, will i be happier then?

3. internship
i think this internship is really helpful and i get to learn many new things here and there. but slowly i realise that architecture and being an architect may not be what i see for myself when i grow old and go into the working world. of cos i may not even be in the position to say such things when im struggling to pay back my bank loans next time.

i even did calculations with ruilin this afternoon about our academic route. we'll need to live off our parents for another one year (AT LEAST) to pay all our debts to the bank. by then, we'll be 25 years old with ENTIRELY NO SAVINGS for our lives.

worse off are the guys who wil be 27. how to get married with no money? have to work our asses off for another 5 years. by then mid 30s, half your life gone. reality check.

4. woman fainted in bus when i was going to work yesterday
it was terrible. her eyes were still open when she plopped onto the floor. i was totally stunned, not exactly for her fainting, but for the people standing around her. correction. MEN standing around her. the bloody men just STARED at her. and didnt lay a finger to hold her or help her up. they just STARED. its the women who picked her up and offered her a seat and water to drink (ME). i CANT BELIEVE they are so bloody useless.
i just feel so disillusioned about singaporean's and their "mind our own business" attitude that has already crept into our subconcious and become the way of life.
overall i rate

MEN'S STUPIDITY OVER SINGAPOREAN'S APATHY.