we are all born mad. some remain so.

is there more to life now other than meeting deadlines after deadlines?

i dont understand all that is happening now, why does everything have to be this way? every tutor is pushing us to submit high quality work fast. that to me is atrocious. there is a whole list of shit to be done:

1. CAD out my design (which i have NO IDEA how to use)
BUT in the first place i havent confirm my design yet
BECAUSE i realised i have yet to encapsulate the essence of my concept/intention

2. urban design submission on tuesday 2pm, why am i the only person who seems to be dead worried when it accounts for 50% of your module marks?!

3. sheares production. i know its weird to label watching a production as a chore but it really is. i cant believe at this point of time, i have officially lost everything else in life to design. it will be over tomorrow at 7pm

4. recording for FM95.8 kids show. i COULDNT have rejected the offer, why do i have to be OBLIGED!?! but it will be all over soon tomorrow at 230pm

5. tuition for priscilla. i took a new tuition job. this girl near my place. i thought i can tuition and then go home straight, but i guess taking it up does put responsibility and commitment up my ass a little

6. LECTERN. one word: ANGMOH. shout out to florian. making us do such a huge task which only accounts for 30%??? it takes up so much time! cast concrete? make formwork? oh come on im not a bloody construction worker. besides, theres DESIGN. glad to see your email stating your knowledge of the importance of Design. NO HELP THERE!

7. Building. wtf is wrong with all these tutors? projects projects projects. once again, i don't even need a word of thanks for making us risk our lives climbing up water tanks on rooftops. i just need TIME to do my freaking project for you.

i guess right now things are looking REALLY hectic. seriously, don't we all agree that its better to hand up work that has quality (even if the tutor doesnt think so at least you feel like you put in the correct amount of effort?) rather than sloppy work?

GIVE US A FUCKING BREAK.

btw one of the birds died. could i have exchanged the position with it? let me die.