we are all born mad. some remain so.

tomorrow will be the start of the sem 2 exams
im terrified but calm in a way

since end of crit i spent the whole 9 days with lloyd studying for exams
hes already done with bu and archi con
im still stuck at bu
i havent touched formulae since jc
i havent come across the world of Physics since sec sch
help...

halfway i broke down and cried non stop
i dont know why
i think it might be a stroke of depression
lloyd said "u're scaring me"
then i looked at myself in the mirror

omg i look fucking ugly
then i stopped crying and started studying

my sis and bro are going orlando for 9 days
i hope they enjoy themselves
they're going places like times square st pauls and trinity church
they promised to take more photos of architectural buildings
i feel so excited for them
going to see the buildings that i hear jumeng talk about...
but i tink they werent as excited as me
they also get to go to visit the kennedy space centre
i love space
i want to be an astronaut
but im scared i'll be lost in space
ive asked for an orlando magic jersey
i hope they wont buy just that.

they are flying off at 4am later
im really sad i cant send them off the airport
my mom will be alone and lonely
i love her... i will ask her to come live with me in hall
while i study for my exams

ahhh... im wasting time now...
shall go for last min revision now

maybe later cook noodles to eat
shit im not supposed to eat supper
:(