we are all born mad. some remain so.

Its already December. Soon 2005 will come... Its funny that this year has been really quick... I've:

1.Met some really wonderful people in 29 that I know will be great friends with for a LOOOONG time to come. I apologise for my initial contempt for them, and i give you all big thanks and love and hugs for being so accepting towards me. Its really remarkable how good friends we've become in a single year, real and warm.

2.Appreciated 36 more than ever. G3: oh my God i've never thought we'll be so close now... this is really indescribable. F4: each of you are so special to me... thanks for all the help and talks through MSN, we should meet each other soon ok! russ sue shifu gayren aaron amandaZ (hope i din miss out anyone frm yr clique): 4 words: i LOVE you all!

3.The IRC pals whom i still contact!!! goodness... who said that IRC was superficial? Ian:stop being so blur pls. but i'm glad we still hang out together often hahaha... fucking 4: GO OUT! GO OUT! LETS GO OUT!

4.Found myself. For the past few years I was trying to be someone i was not. Trying to be equally appealing like others in the same way, only to discover i made a fool out of myself. Getting depressed over almost everything, being stupid, acting stupid. I don't know why or how but I've realised that being totally honest to yourself and to others is what makes you YOU. People will appreciate you, and if they don't, its not your fault. It may not be their fault either. Admit you are wrong sometimes. You are not perfect. Neither are others. Sometimes you follow, sometimes make it a point to lead. Most importantly, think of how others will think or feel when you do something. That was how i found my identity... so am I nice or not? I leave it for everyone to decide.