we are all born mad. some remain so.

today is the fresh new beginning of another week of school.
suz has brought a new meaning of "mugging" altogether.

i tink when yu become a friend to someone else, there are some things yu want to say to him/her but yu will not.
(a) cos yu're scared yu will jeapordise the friendship if the person does not accept it , or
(b) cos yu just cannot be bothered to.

when those things are being said, there's only one combi that will ensure everything stays fine.
1. yu gotta haf enough courage (yes, courage.) and love for yr friend to say it
2. the friend has gotta be those who know yu well and is able to realise what yu say is... true.

thank goodness 1 and 2 applied today.
i guess somehow this has alleviated our friendship to something that defines the true meaning of the word "friend".

ive made this super major decision to delete my IRC...
i havent told anyone in there yet... but hopefully they read this and understand wads going on.
cos if i only vow to stop using it, i'll only click on it again everytime i on the comp.
this is really making me nuts, but im quite determined to carry it out.
i'll still update my blog daily...

im moving the radio out of my room really soon too i tink.
havent been receiving any sms these few days...
am i THAT unpopular? *sigh*
met C4 at bedok MRT after bidding suz bye.
this is the LAST time in my life im gonna stop freezing and asking myself:
"oh fuck. do i look like shit in front of he/she?"
i am what i am!!!!!
how many times must i tell myself!!!! damn it!
"i am a tiger. i can roar! *rarrrgghhh*"

thank goodness i still haf my ICQ... but nonetheless...
2 and a half months...
how low can yu go?

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for the sake of dear joshy...
i shall write abt the day at the channel outing...
feared going up there and feeling awkward all alone.
so i made pigmoon wait for me down at the platform.
really sorry pigmoon!
din haf much difficulty finding the pple... cos joshy was there.
no not bcos of his size... but cos i know how he looks like already.
C4 and wads-her-name? were there too...
then we made our way to the bus stop to wait for 400... in the frizzling rain... my one and only roxy hat!!!
that was when joshy started displaying his crappiness.
well. as for me and pigmoon, we still needed a little more time to melt away the... uneasiness?
well we waited for the first can of sardines to pass... and took the next 400.
when we reached the arcade, the rest were there... first we met elemental... who i stupidly cannot recall seeing his foto before and tot it was some extra guy, and found xigua and (was it anthony?) who were playing dunno-wads-that-machine.
then the whole group of us met sobi and walked down to the dunno-which-steamboat place and settled down to one...
unfortunately the irritating uncle refused to help us and (yes, yr fave part) joshy had generously moved one huge table all by himself for us...
the uncle, out of guilt, had to help us wif the next one, wif the reverse psychology from me and pigmoon. (dun ask me how!!!)
so we sort of dried the tables and chairs and settled down (finally!) and started grabbing some pathetic (and i really mean that) stuff to makan.
den yeash... the rest of the time i was laffing at jokes by joshy and C4...
wif occasional addition by the rest of the pple... its really urm... not much.
so in short, wad i did was simply... cook, serve pigmoon and the others, eat, listen, laff.
yah. but overall i rate the outing a 6.5? at least i gotta know how the hell the people ive been talking so much to looks like.
and not that bad...